My life before without Jesus was miserable… until I found Jesus as my Saviour, and then I began to experience the love, grace, mercy, and miracles of God. He turns my trials into triumphs, my tears and sorrow into joy.
I would say that life without Jesus is like living in the dark where there is no light and you do not know where to go and what to do. But when I accepted Jesus, my life changed; every aspect of my life has change because I have my living God who can do the impossible things.
First, I knew God through my officemate named Ret. PEMS Sherrie Gail S. Madamba happened to invite me to attend the bible study at her mother’s house because she knew that I was in pain due to watery discharge at my breast and that I was helpless and depressed, so I decided to attend the said bible study. During the bible study, I was touched and felt the presence of the Lord, and that was the time I promised God to attend the bible study regularly if the result of my check-up and laboratory tests were okay, after several days I decided to go for a check-up, right after my check-up, I experienced already a miracle, all my laboratories (Mammogram/Ultrasound) are normal and the result of the discharge from my breast has nothing to worry about. Again, my trials did not end there, my eldest child was operated on his private part due to a blood clot that prevents him from urinating during his recovery and was so alarming, but again by faith and prayers, we surpassed that trial. God is testing God, my eldest child was His first target to test my faith in Him because my son suffers from chronic stomach ache for an unknown reason, he underwent all types of laboratory but everything was normal, he suffered for almost 4 months and during that period, I didn’t know what to do but held unto God’s promises and every day declaring and claiming for healing of my son, and God did not fail me, he healed my son.
My life with Jesus is not always really a bed of roses, my journey with Him comes with trials and great blessings until again my daughter suffers on and off fever with no reason because all laboratory results show normal findings until one day, my daughter had a fever again and at this time she cannot walk, and claiming pain on her lower extremities, so I rushed her that day at Vintar Rural Health Unit, but recommends me to go to GRASMA for further medical laboratory\ry check-up. And here comes the result, and it was devastating because the finding shows abnormal, some laboratories were high and it needs immediate medical attention, unfortunately, the said hospital was not able to provide immediate care due to unavailability of facilities. So on the day, they recommended us to transfer to MMMH, along the way to said hospital, I sought the guidance of the Lord, I prayed and asked again for a miracle healing over my daughter. While at the emergency room at MMMH, my daughter underwent many laboratories to verify the accuracy of the result of laboratories from GRASMA, but while waiting for the result, I prayed and declared healing upon my daughter and acclaimed normal result, and while praying, my daughter who was cuddling me, shockingly withdrawn from my lap, and was able to walk and run to play around has nothing happened. It was indeed a sign that my prayers were answered. And at that time, the fever was gone, I knew already that the Lord has healed my daughter and I know that day that we will go home. While waiting for the confirmation to be discharged by the attending physician, here comes now the results and praised God were all normal and we were immediately discharged from the hospital.
Again my faith was tested by God but never left me, I happened to undergo tonsillectomy operation due to chronic tonsillitis that I even spit fresh blood, I was alarmed and worried since the doctor said that there was a chance of being cancerous, and it will also affect the heart if not removed, but again by God’s grace, after a successful operation, the result of my biopsy was free from any cancer. All glory to God, he never leaves me nor forsakes me.
My fight is not ended, again, the storms come and the lightning hit me again… Yes… again and again, but this time the devil wants to destroy my family, my relationship with my husband was almost broken yes… it was nearly broken and I almost gave up, but I thanked God because I have some cell members who are always there to guide me and prayed for me. During that time, I didn’t understand the plan of the Lord and it was hard for me to thank Him I cannot accept anymore those trials and I was so in pain… deep pain. I always crying and cannot sleep and eat, I lost weight and sick and so much depressed. There’s one time I wanted to go out and seek worldly things but I thanked the Lord because I have my home cell leaders Ma’am Carol and Pastor Cora who always there to cry on, they are always there to advise me and strengthen my faith with the Lord. Yes!!! Our God is an answering God because my relationship with my husband has been restored and I thanked Him because He just not restored our relationship BUT he even saved my husband, YES! My husband who was the first who persecuted me when I became a Christian and now, He even called it as of now, my whole family is saved, my children is also active in the J21 Youth Ministry, I prayed to the Lord his protection always to be upon my family.
Challenges in our lives cannot be rid, we stumble but God lifted us up. There are so many things that we are thankful for, for every broken relationship that has been restored, for every financial difficulty that has been resolved, and for every health problem that have been cleared up. Always give thanks to the Lord whatever your circumstances because His plan is greater than our plans, stay calm in the presence of the Lord, and do not worry about anything instead PRAY everything ask God for help and strength because God is incomparable, he is great and mighty… he never forgets, never fails. Never falters, and never forfeits His Word and He is the same, yesterday today, and tomorrow. I will always proclaim the goodness and the love of God until my last breath… YES!!! I AM HIS LIVING TESTIMONY…